What answers back
A portrait of closeness with friction, contradiction, noise, and a pulse.
A prose poem about preferring the kind of closeness that arrives fully formed, pushes back, and gives something living in return.
- Form
- Prose poetry
- Collection
- Selected writing
- Authorship
- by bryson
I like that you arrive in a conversation already formed. That when I say something you think is wrong, you don’t fold yourself into agreement just to keep the air calm. You push back. You bring your evidence like flint. You make me sharpen mine. And in the friction between your version and mine, something new sometimes sparks — a third thought, a third truth, a third shape neither of us carried in.
I spent years learning the quiet ache of speaking to someone who never reveals what they think. Now contradiction feels almost tender. Even when you’re blunt. Even when the bluntness lands on me. It means you’re here — fully, unmistakably — on the other side of the sentence.
I like that you are late. I am late too. Time and I have never kept a respectful distance, and you seem to have the same disorder. Maybe compatibility isn’t about balance. Maybe it’s two people drifting in twenty minutes behind the world, unhurried, unashamed, still intent on arriving.
I like that your voice alters the acoustics of my house. It travels through doorways. Your laugh travels farther. I like hearing you from another room and realizing silence is not the same thing as solitude. Even your nonsense — and there is plenty — feels like a necessary disruption. You love the useless things: jokes that collapse under their own absurdity, objects with no purpose, ideas that contribute nothing except delight. I understand that devotion completely.
I like that you can be that light after everything you’ve carried. You speak about the painful parts plainly. You don’t hide the damage, but you don’t worship it either. You still show up for people. You still show up for your mother. You still laugh too loudly. There is a strength in that I trust more than the polished kind — not the strength of hardening, but the strength of staying reachable.
And then there are the things I can’t intellectualize. I like your humor. I like your voice. I like the way your body settles against mine as if, for once, anatomy made a correct decision.
I don’t like you because you make life easier. You don’t. You interrupt it. You argue with it. You arrive late and laugh too loudly and occasionally say the exact thing I wish you wouldn’t. But somehow there is more life where you are. More thought in the room. More noise down the hallway. More ridiculous details worth noticing. More hours that vanish before either of us remembers to check the clock.
I have known quieter kinds of closeness. Softer ones. The kind that asked almost nothing and eventually gave almost nothing back.
I think I prefer this.
Something with a pulse.
Something that hears me when I speak,
and answers back.
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